I had a nightmare last night about myself getting kicked out and I had no other place to go. I had to move in back with my family. Who don't believe that I'm transmale(Female to Male in case no one knows what it means). And the bullying and verble attacks gotten worse. Than I had to move back with my mom who was living with her boyfriend again. Which gotten even worse..
Lemme explain that part: My mom and her boyfriend has been together since I was in middle school. And I moved in with my mom, brothers, and our two dogs. And her boyfriend (Let's call him Jo) didn't like that. He wanted mom not her baggage. As the years went on whenever I stepped out of my room I got in some kind of stupid trouble. His daughter(Let's call her Kim) blamed EVERYTHING she did on me. Like leaving the dishes out, breaking the remotes(Which is what Jo did). Even when I was gone I got blamed for it. Constantly yelled at and even when I said a word I got in trouble. Even when I DEFENDED myself or asked for some help I got called lazy and a brat. I dealt with that for 6 years and yet I don't know how to properly function that well with people because of that. I was practically forced into isolation from others. Which can drive anyone insane.
I also have a communication disorder, which was already hard to live with. I didn't tell anyone about that.. Mainly because I learned of it recently. My mom never told me because she didn't want me to be labled. Well it already happened. Before I was prideful person, defender of myself and people, as well as a heavy eater(extremely high metabolism runs in the family). But as soon as I moved into Jo' house I was under weight, quiet, and emotionally unstable. Art, cosplay, youtube, and drawing were my distractions but helped me.. Even then I wanted to earn money doing art so I could leave that place. And I still wanna earn money for my hard works.
Even though Jo tried to apologize to me, sorry isn't gonna help me regain his trust nor help heal the wounds he caused. I'm not a victim, I'm a survivor who lived through it. I just wish I knew how to handle depression.
Lemme explain that part: My mom and her boyfriend has been together since I was in middle school. And I moved in with my mom, brothers, and our two dogs. And her boyfriend (Let's call him Jo) didn't like that. He wanted mom not her baggage. As the years went on whenever I stepped out of my room I got in some kind of stupid trouble. His daughter(Let's call her Kim) blamed EVERYTHING she did on me. Like leaving the dishes out, breaking the remotes(Which is what Jo did). Even when I was gone I got blamed for it. Constantly yelled at and even when I said a word I got in trouble. Even when I DEFENDED myself or asked for some help I got called lazy and a brat. I dealt with that for 6 years and yet I don't know how to properly function that well with people because of that. I was practically forced into isolation from others. Which can drive anyone insane.
I also have a communication disorder, which was already hard to live with. I didn't tell anyone about that.. Mainly because I learned of it recently. My mom never told me because she didn't want me to be labled. Well it already happened. Before I was prideful person, defender of myself and people, as well as a heavy eater(extremely high metabolism runs in the family). But as soon as I moved into Jo' house I was under weight, quiet, and emotionally unstable. Art, cosplay, youtube, and drawing were my distractions but helped me.. Even then I wanted to earn money doing art so I could leave that place. And I still wanna earn money for my hard works.
Even though Jo tried to apologize to me, sorry isn't gonna help me regain his trust nor help heal the wounds he caused. I'm not a victim, I'm a survivor who lived through it. I just wish I knew how to handle depression.